:: cukup ke? ::

Yesterday night, after having our iftar with smapians, HB received call from my mom-in-law. One of our dua-pupu passed away last night – Dak Abang Pakcik (ni gelaran yg diberi padanya). I barely know him sebab kami jarang jumpa except during some family events. And he is just 34 YEARS OLD ye kawan2 with 3 small kids, the eldest is 6 years, seorang peguam. Sedey kan. Tapi Alhamdulillah, meninggalnya mudah, di bulan Ramadhan pula tu– hanya sakit dada sebelum berbuka, cakap dgn wifenya, nk berbuka dulu, then baru ingat nk ke hospital. 8.35 malam meninggal dunia di rumah.

Hanya HB yg ke rumah arwah, aku hanya duduk di rumah with the kids, tapi bile dengar cerita arwah, terkenang diri sendiri. I am just 5 years younger than arwah, sedangkan arwah yg tak sakit apa2 dijemput Allah, inikan lagi kita2 ni..cukup ke amalan yg nk dibawa bersama? Berapa banyak solat kita yg dilakukan dengan kusyuk? Ada ke amalan sunat yg dilakukan untuk tampung cacat cela amalan yg lain? Berapa sgt helaian Quran yg dh dibaca sepanjang Ramadhan ni? Quote from my ustaz mengaji: ‘Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan untuk semua, cuma satu saya harapkan , anggaplah ini Ramadhan terakhir yg tuan/puan akan jumpa. Dengan itu kita akan dekat dengan Allah’.

:: my two angels ::

I have two angles..one is Fadhly and another one is Fiqry. They are my heart and soul..(*including the father of this two angel :) ). But both of them are totally different from each other. Si abang sgt lembut hati, very soft, mudah mengalirkan air mata (HB ckp bab ni ikut mummynye), very loving & caring, suka mengemas. While si adik begitu aggressive, if he’s awake, mmg la mcm tongkang pecah rumah kami, jatuh sikit2 takkan menangis, sungguh berani (klu tutup lampu whole house, fiqry dengan selambe merangkak kat dapur, nk main kerusi). Well, looking at fiqry’s attitude, kadang2 tu saya ter”pok” (pukul perlahan kat punggung) fiqry..and fadhly cried. I asked him:
‘kenapa menangis?’
‘mummy “pok” fiqry’
‘fiqry tanak diam, mummy “pok” la..bukan “pok” banglong pun’
‘yerla, kesian adik. Adik kecik lagi..adik tak tau’
‘hah???’

How protective the brother is, kan?? Really hope that the ‘love’ between them will remain there forever.
No matter how difference both of you, Mummy sgt sayang anak-anak Mummy and hope you will do the same too when I’m getting older.