:: life of taxi driver ::

Working trip to Kuching was fine. Friday night sampai je di KLIA, terus ambik budget taxi utk ke rumah memandangkan HB takde utk pick-up. Alhamdullilah dapat taxi yg besar and the driver is a very nice man – middle age about 40++ kot, a bit bald..hehe..sibbaik tak bun*** and here’s the conversation goes in the taxi:

Him: balik mana dik?
Me: Kajang
Him: oo..Kajang. baru balik dr kerja ke?
Me: Haah, baru balik dr Kuching. Ada kerja sikit kat sana. Ada mesyuarat.
Him: Kerje mana?
Me: T*
Him: ooo, selalu yer kalau org kerja T* pergi mesyuarat jauh2 ni…takpelah. Dapat duit extra sikit masa claim. Takla mcm saya ni..nak dapat duit extra kene buat part-time.
Me: (surprise jugak) oo..ye ke?? Kerja mana?
Him: ERL. Ala, kalau adik kerja jadi pemandu teksi ni, mcm2 org adik jumpa..pengarah pon ade.
Me: (dlm hati..usih, biar benar?? Takkan pengarah pon tak cukup duit)
Him: (sambung lagi cerita) nak buat mcm mana dik, sekarang ni kerja susah. Anak pun ramai, saya ni ada anak 8 org. sumenye sekolah, sume pakai duit. Saya ni hbs je kerja 5.30, terus dtg KLIA bwk teksi sampai pagi. Kongsi dgn kawan sewa kereta ni, sehari je bayar RM160, plg kurang sehari kene dapat 2 trip, baru boleh cover cost.
Me: (nk menyedapkan hati dia) tape, anak2 tue masing2 ada rezekinya..

Adala continuity dr cerita tue..tapi kekadang tu bile terdiam je, dr cermin pandang belakang, I saw him sleepy, very sleepy..kekadang tue tertutup mata and the car diverted to the other side of the road (dlm hati..isk.. biar benar bro ni..kang tak pepasal accident plak) so aku keep bercakap dgn dia sampaila kerumah. Sampai je rumah, aku siap pesan “bawak kereta elok2 yer”.

That’s life, kadangkala kita merungut dengan kehidupan kita…but kat luar sana tue, lebih ramai org yg lebih susah dr kita demi membesarkan anak2 tercinta. Well, everything happens for a reason.

:: majlis aqiqah n fadhly's birthday ::

some of the snaps taken during that day.
~still in the office at 8.35 p.m (sigh..)

:: my little hero ::

Alhamdulillah, safely delivered my little hero, Izzul Fiqry bin Khairy Fahmy on 1/11/08 at 1.15 p.m. (with no epidural, except for one jap ~sibbaik sakit pon tak lama) and alhamdullilah, with Allah bless, i still fully bf my baby. Insyallah, hopefully it can prolong till he's 1 yr old.

p/s: sorry le kengkawan, lambat upload gamba. nnt kite upload lak gamba sekitar Majlis Aqiqah and Izzul Fadhly's birthday.

:: happy 4th birhday to izzul fadhly 30/12/08 ::

Mummy wanna wish you a happy birthday.
Semoga menjadi anak yg soleh dan sentiasa mendoakan mummy dan daddy kesejahteraan di dunia dan akhirat.
Alhamdulillah despite the challenges that we are facing for the first 2 years of ur born, you are a great son and we want you to know that we luv you so much.

:: breastpump ::

Currently I'm in the midst of comparing the most effective and affordable breast pump for my coming lil' baby. Looking forward either for Medela PISA or Ameda Lactaline Personal Dual Electric Breastpump. Anyone has any idea on which one is the best??

:: 23 Aug 2008 ::

Genap setahun dah arwah meninggalkan kami, anak kedua kami yg lahir pada 23 Aug 2007. Pejam celik pejam celik sekejap jer setahun masa berlalu. Dan kini aku mengandungkan anak kami yg ketiga - dah 7 1/2 bulan dah..alhamdulillah rezeki dari Allah. Semoga kandungan yg dah pun masuk third trimester ni dilahirkan dengan selamat, sihat walafiat dan tiada apa2 komplikasi berlaku insyallah.

Sempat kami sekeluarga menjenguk kubur arwah di Kepong. Walaupun dah setahun, tapi setiap kali terpandang kuburnya, aku pasti menitiskan air mata. Entah kenapa, mungkin hati seorang ibu yg dah rasa kehadiran insan didalam dirinya..tendangan, gerakan, keseronokan tak dapat nak disorokkan..tapi tanpa izin Allah, insan itu bukan milik kami. Insyaallah ada hikmah disebaliknya.
Izzul at kubur: 'nape mummy nangis?'
HB: 'cuba tanya mummy?'
Aku: diam je.. air mata masih menitis..

Dah pun masuk Ramadhan, moga Ramadhan kali ini dapat kami penuhi dengan amal ibadah pada Allah swt. Alhamdulillah, setakat ni masih belum ponteng puasa. Harap2nya, sehingga ke Syawal nanti, dapatle aku berpuasa..

TO ALL MY FRIENDS: SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN..

:: surprise bday party for my beloved hubby on 27 July 2008 ::

- masa hb dipaksa berdiri atas kerusi and kene tiup lilin kat kek guna straw dr jauh

- me & izzul with closest fren of hb

- me, hb & izzul

- me & my fren..thanx for helping me out for the surprise :)


For my HB, happy 28th birthday.
Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki.
Moga kita berbahagia selalu sehingga ke akhir hayat..

:: 2008 ::

It’s almost half year of 2008 and yet this is my first entry in this year. Thought that I’m going to be a bit active in updating my own blog but it turns out à I’m not..
Well, I also decided not to open my blog to public as I don’t feel comfortable when ‘someone’ keep repeating what I’m saying in my blog. So I just decided to keep it to myself and my closest frenz..

We’ll a few things backtrack from early of the year till now
- 1 Jan 2008 – celebrate Izzul’s birthday at No 44 Jalan Sutera Kajang. Happy birthday my son. I really love you and I’ll always do. Hope that you’ll be – anak yg soleh. Alhamdulillah, everything went well with him. He’s already diapers free at 2 yrs (heheh..jimat sikit) Only thing that worries me is his weight which until now, he still stays at 10 kg even though he’s 3 years old already..
- 12 & 13 Feb 2008 – Happy birthday to Along & My Mom For 29th and 51 birthday. Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki..treat them at Bora Ombak, TTDI. Such a nice place.
- 26 – 29 Feb 2008 – went to Singapore due to ‘Customer Care & Billing Asia Conference’. I was appointed by my GM representing TM to improve customer service issue in TM. Anyway, thanx boss, this is such a big opportunity for me. Bring HB together but due to the full schedule, not able to go around. Wish to bring Izzul here in the future.
- 1 – 3 Mar 2008 – went to Sabah. Cuti2 Malaysia. Went together with our closest neighbour cum HB’s officemate. The most frustrated part is with Air Asia service. They postpone the flight from 10.00 to 4.00 and plane only arrive at 8.00 -> serik gile…
- 4 Apr 2008 – Wedding anniversary. Thought of having just a treat at special place for dinner. Suddenly receive a bouquet of roses with 2 bears together (me & HB ler tuu :) ) with small pillow love shape wrote ‘ Love is not a feeling, it’s a sensation’ + small card wrote:
To: Zah
Happy 4th Anniversary
Luv ya…
Always and Forever…That’s How Long I Love You.
Thanx 4 everything
04.04.04 – 04.04.08
From: It’s Mie
- such a lovely wording.. HB, I do love you forever & ever..
11 May 2008 – It’s Mother’s day. On the 12th, I receive a lovely card from my boy..will upload the pic later..

:: kembali ke rahmatullah ::

Al fatihah buat arwah Haji Mohd Karim bin Haji Bidin, ayahanda tersayang yg telah kembali ke rahmatullah pada hari Jumaat, 14 Dec 2007 bersamaan 4 Zulhijjah 1428 H. Moga arwah ditempatkan bersama orang-orang salihin.

Buat ibunda dan HB tercinta, moga kita sama2 sabar dan tabah menghadapi dugaan Allah ini.

- terlalu byk dugaan yg kami sekeluarga tempuhi tahun ini. Moga Allah limpahkan rahmat dan kurnianya kepada hambanya yg sabar..

:: The Golden Compass ::

For those who have yet to watch this movie, must go and see it.

Watched this movie at GSC Pavillion -Premiere Screening by M2U.

Synopsis:

The Golden Compass is set in an alternative world where people’s souls manifest themselves as animals, talking bears fight wars, and Gyptians and witches co-exist. At the center of the story is Lyra, 12 years old girl who starts out trying to rescue a friend who’s been kidnapped by a mysterious organization known as the Gobblers.

From the same producer of 'The Lord of the Rings'.
Yg tak bestnye..to be continued..

:: We live by Allah’s grace....Allah’s Plans ::

Some things are beyond planning.
And life doesn’t always turn out as planned.
You don’t plan for a broken heart.
You don’t plan for an autistic child.
You don’t plan for spinsterhood.

You plan to be young forever.
You plan to climb the corporate ladder.
You plan to be rich and powerful.
You plan to be acclaimed and successful.
You plan to conquer the universe.
You plan to fall in love - and be loved forever.

You don’t plan to be sad.
You don’t plan to be hurt.
You don’t plan to be broke.
You don’t plan to be betrayed.
You don’t plan to be alone in this world.
You plan to be happy.
You don’t plan to be shattered .

Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want. But MOST times, what you want and what you get are two different things.

We, mortals, plan. But so does Allah (SWT) in the heavens. Sometimes, it is difficult to understand Allah’s plans especially when His plans are not in consonance with ours .

Often, when He sends us crisis, we turn to Him in anger. True, we cannot choose what Allah wishes us to carry, but we can carry it with courage knowing that He will never abandon us nor send something we cannot cope with .

Sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul.
Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes, He allows pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes, Allah sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes, He allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
And sometimes, Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us

Make plans, but understand that we live by Allah’s grace.
Although they plan, Allah also plans. And Allah is the Best of Planners. [Holy Qur'an 8:30]

:: back to work ::

I'm back to work on 22 Oct tp tak berkesempatan langsung nak update blog.
I am stressed..hummp..humpp.. nak berenti keje bole ke??

:: 23 Aug 2007 (Thursday) 11.45 a.m ::

Terima kasih buat teman2 semua, rakan sekerja, kaum keluarga yg sudi menziarahi kami sekeluarga. Ucapan takziah tak henti2 kami terima. I really appreciate it..

Terima kasih x terhingga buat HB for his courage, support during those days. Walaupun aku tau HB juga sedih atas pemergian arwah tp sebagai ketua keluarga, HB perlu kuat hadapi semua ini.

Terima kasih buat Izzul kerana sudi menjadi peneman mummy saat mummy kehilangan adik..

Walaupun air mata ini menjadi peneman setiap hari sebelum aku melelapkan mata tapi aku harus redha atas ketentuan Allah. Semoga 'Muhammad' (biarlah aku simpan nama yg telah aku fikirkan untuk arwah) mampu membantu aku dan HB di akhirat kelak.

"Ya Allah, kurniakanlah kepadaku pahala di atas kedukaan yang ditimpa ke atasku dan gantikanlah dengan yang lebih baik daripadanya.. Amin ya rabbal a'lamin"

Allah tidak akan memberi musibah kepada hambanya melainkan Dia merasa hambanya mampu menerima musibah itu... Insyaallah..

:: azam ::

Nasihat seorang teman membuatkan ku berfikir panjang. Ada kebenaran diatas kata-katanya. Perlukah aku berubah menjadi seorang sahabat baik dlm hidupNya? Insyallah, I will. Tenkiu my fren..

Sambungan kepada trip ke Sabah..bought myself 1 bracelet, 2 brooch (mutiara lagi..dok tau la dasar laut ke tengah laut ke) kristal for my mom and mom-in-law.. and udang kering..tue jela yg dapat sebab tgh duk save2 duit untuk rumah kan…Pagi esokknya berjalan kat tepi pantai.. ingat nak gi pulau manukan laa..kaki gunung kinabalu la..tapi tak tercapai sebab takut terlepas flight. So jalan je sekitar kawasan hotel.. bestla jugak..walaupun penat :)

Lately, aku asyik teringat my beloved baby’s attitude..
Bila dengar je iklan syampu ‘Clear’, tetibe je Izzul menjerit ‘ tak adalah’ sambil meniru gaya model iklan tu
Nampak cicak kat dinding je, keluarla ‘Cicakkkmannn’
Iklan kopi Super Power, awal2 lagi dia dah sebut ‘aku nak powerrrr’
selalu nyanyi sambil pegang beg/bakul telur (dapat masa kenduri kawin) ‘balik ampung…oooo..balik ampung..ati ianggg’
aku selalu membetulkan perkataan dia.
My: ‘P.. A.. PA’
Izzul: PA
My: ‘N..A..S… NAS’
Izzul: NAS
My: PANAS
Izzul: AMMASS..
Hmmm…tapi last 2 days, Izzul dah berjaya menyebut PANAS. Another achievement :)

Aku dok terpikir apela azam tahun baru yg bakal datang ni..
Insyallah nak jadi isteri, ibu dan pekerja yg lebih baik insyallah…nak start exercise for my backbone balik and nak baca Quran dengan lebih banyak dr tahun ni.. baru tiga azam ..rasa mcm nak tambah lagi..
Insyallah..moga2 Allah permudahkan segalanya untuk tahun 2007.

:: sabah..here I come ::

Alhamdullillah, buat pertama kalinya menjejakkan kaki ke sabah..when HB mentioned that he wants to bring me together to his trip to KK, I was like jumping up and down (tp cover2, just senyum2 je..hehe), punyalah seronok.. selama 26 tahun hidup, ni la pertama kali ke sabah. TQVM HB - luv ya'. I was so excited siap tanya Ummimon and my officemate yg dah pergi sana, tempat menarik etc.

But due to the very expensive MAS ticket, kami tak bawa my lovely baby together. Sorry ye sayang, nanti kalau Izzul dah besar, dah boleh ingat gi jalan sana-sini, My bawak semula yer.
Is this our second honeymoon??..hmmm.

Flight from KLIA 11.45am 21/11/06 to Kuching (tak dapat flight terus, kene transit ke Kuching then only ke Sabah), kami tak dapat duduk bersama (terlambat check-in). HB at row 10 and myself at row 18. Sampai kat Sabah around 5.30pm, kami stay di Radius International Hotel - hotel baru bukak opposite Le Meridien - concept like boutique hotel.. eventhough the room is quite small but I like the modern concept. Will update the pics later.

Masuk je dlm bilik hotel - dapat access internet free. Mlm nye kami ke night market for our dinner. Bought some chicken wings - wowww..superb and have some seafood - udang, sotong, and ikan kerapu makan 3 org baru RM18.. uwaaa heavennye..
Ingatkan nak tangkap gamba dinner kami - tapi HB tak kasi. Takut tuan kedai tau kami pelancong, kene charge mahal lak..hehe..

22/11/06 - HB awal2 pagi dah bersiap - kene gi visit customer with his few friends from HQ and here I am updating my blog. Mlm ni activity shopping mopping..yeyy..tapi tuela, kene berhemah sikit sebab dah byk spend utk rumah baruku...

Taa...moga2 lepas balik ni ada masa utk update lagi. Takut bersawang balik cam dulu.

::new house::

Balik dr raya, ingatkan nak update blog with all the pics during hari raya. Tetibe my batery camera 'kong' plak, dengan charger sekali rosak..terus takde mood nak update blog.

Well, last week news, finally, I've got my new tv, washing machine and fridge for my new house, bought on J-Card Day Mid Valley. Dr pukul 8.00 pg smpila 10.00 mlm kami berada kat sana... x pernah dibuat org, gaya2 mcm nak borong satu JJ jer...heheh..tp apakan daya, kredit kadku tak mengizinkan. Lepas ni sure pening nak bayar kredit kad nih. On the way back, me and HB tersenyum simpul jek sepanjang jln..yey...

Wed till thurs, outstation to Kedah...nak bawak by ke tak? bawak ke tak?? isk..iskk..

::salam from izzul fadhly::

Assalamualaikum semua,

Muhammad Izzul Fadhly mewakili my dan dy nya..nak ucapkan Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua yg mengenali diri kami dari hari pertama saya dilahirkan sehinggalah nak mencecah umur 2 tahun akhir tahun ni :). Maaf zahir dan batin di pinta kalau saya agak naughty masa jumpe aunty dan uncle. Jangan lupa berhari raya di rumah Izzul nanti ok!! Berhati-hati di jalan raya. Semoga selamat sampai ke kampung masing-masing dan kembali bekerja semula.. Ingat..pesanan terakhir 'Jangan main mercun'. ~ flying kiss, muahz..~

:: ade org tu? ::

HB gone off again, kali ni ke Kuantan, Pahang for 3 days. Masa HB pegi outstation kali ni, Fadhly is not that well, dia kena cirit-birit n muntah2. Kesian sgt tgk dia, and the next day, myself, mom & bibik kene jugak. I’ve got my day off – kononnye bolehla berehat kat rumah, rupanya tak jugak, phone ringing fr 9-5.

Well, as ummimon said, with the 3G technology yg canggih amat skarang ni, I’ve got my handbag for hari raya. Actually HB suruh 3G die to choose a shirt and also sandle for him. Pusing punye pusing dalam Berjaya Mall, Kuantan, he bought me handbag. Tapi yg memilihnya saye ler..thru 3G phone tuh..canggih betul rasenye. Eventhough, for me the bag is quite expensive tapi ada less 50% so it’s a good bargain right..

:: 26 years already ::

Alhamdulillah, syukur ke hadrat illahi kerana masih dipanjangkan umur olehNya. Hari ni genap umur ku 26 tahun. Terasa bersyukur dengan nikmat yg diberikan – kesihatan diri sendiri dan Fadhly yg semakin baik, HB yg penyayang (eventho suke menyakat), kerja yg stabil, keluarga yg sentiasa mendorong, kawan2 yg sentiasa disisi saat susah dan senang. Alhamdulillah..





Heppi bornday too to my kembar a.k.a Ika. Moga kita sama2 memperbaiki diri dalam mendapat keredhaannya. Thanx to HB and thanx to my bessfren Effi for the iftar at buffet San Francisco Steakhouse – sedapp.. amat disarankan pada sesiapa yg suke western food. Makan takla banyak mana tapi adala kambing sket. The next day terus tumbang, tak boleh bangun langsung dr katil for one whole day – sakit sgt kepala. Kononya, dinner tue HB blanje, cewah punyelah berbunge2 hati..tup2 mase nak byr, HB keluarla credit card dia, a few min after, cashier dtg balik – card reject. Keluar pulak kad kedua – kad reject lagi. Dengan nada ‘ehem2’ – “zah byr dulu pakai kad zah boleh? Nnt abg bayar balik” ..isk..isk.. spoil je.. hehe
Tula..byk sgt outstation – asyik bayar duit hotel je..tak sedar dah over credit limit.


- me and my bess fren, effi-

:: ?? ::

I miss my HB.. :(